Hi Vox friends! Just stopping by this holiday season to wish you all a Merry Christmas! Guess what! I graduated yesterday! And I got tiramisu and diamonds. And it snowed (weak, melted from the sun today).
Just wanted to say hello and send some smiles your way... take care <3
The birth of my brother 22 years ago automatically secured me with a built-in room mate if ever I needed one, and well, the time has come. I asked him some months ago, following me telling Chris I want a divorce, if he would be interested in being my room mate. Three weeks ago I became full-time status at work, thus allowing me to think more strategically about living on my own. Him and I found a place, and will be moving in sometime next week. There are several caveats that come to mind, however:
- Neither of us plan on being in San Diego for very much longer (much to my parents dismay, I'm sure). Referring back to my previous post, I plan on being in San Diego no longer than 1 more year, and my brother will be discharging from the Navy in 2011 to join the Marine Corps.
- Related to caveat 1, we need to decide within the next 6 months if we're going to continue living there until he leaves (meaning I will be paying rent for a place I won't be living in for 3 months and potentially not be going back to at all after I complete Officer Candidacy School).
- We have absolutely nothing to put in our house besides what little belongings we both have, a TV and various game consoles that are rightly his, and a cat that is rightly mine. By some act of God, I managed to secure a mattress and two couches from various coworkers for a small fee. Supposedly it's all in great, gently used condition. At this point, I couldn't give a shit...
- Despite being able to "afford" living on my own, I will be living just within my means. I will be broke for a long, long time, which will make me leaving for OCS that much more meaningful.
But everything about the situation makes those three (and I'm sure there are more...) points completely worth the trouble. Our situation is entirely temporary. Just the fact that I'll be on my own, with my own room and own space, is more important to me than any of the negative aspects that may arise.
Not all those who wander are lost...
...life moves on. I'm still living, still breathing, happy with myself and the choices I've made with my life. Instead of succumbing to the split-second thought "it's 9 in the morning and well, I'd rather stay in bed all day", I realized not a whole lot gets done when you're just laying there. The same could be said for just about everything in life. Every day, I am faced with a situation that proves just how true that is. So I get up, time and time again. Pull back the covers and face the world, because the world will go on without me regardless.
I am on the move. In 3 months, I will be done with nursing school and ready to face the world. I want to join the Navy as a nurse; I am forcing myself to meet new challenges that I never thought I'd ever choose to take on. If I do this, I will be moving to a completely different coast for 3 months, by myself. Who knows what kind of physical and mental challenges I'll go through once I'm there to prepare me for the military life. On top of that, where will I decide to "end up" once I'm done with my training: back to San Diego, stay on the east coast, go overseas? The possibilities will be endless, and I can't wait. This is exactly the kind of thing I've been waiting for, what I've broken away from my old life for. To not only find myself, but to make myself.
The stress, frustration, and anguish of a life gone wrong are dredged up constantly. I need a fresh start to mend this broken heart. Granted, everything that ever happened to me was partially because of me, but it doesn't hurt any less. I look forward to moving on from all of this, creating a new image for myself, and coming home eventually to find that time really does work miracles. At least, that's what I'm hoping for. I will miss my family and friends more then anything, but I'm no stranger to this. For this I am thankful for coming from a Navy family. I am no stranger to change; in fact, I often times crave it. Stability, stricture, and discipline are some things I need. I'm far too spoiled for my own good, I need a swift kick in the ass and a little growin' up to boot. I also want to see the world (for free) and the spare change I'll collect along the way isn't a bad incentive.
Divorce is hard, heartbreak is hard too. But an unhappy life is unacceptable. And I am finally happy.
It's raining. It's pouring. The old man is snoring. It's been raining like crazy out here. I'm so not used to it. I also hate driving in the rain so that has sucked as well.
I finally started work! It's been good so far, not my favorite thing. But I need the money. I need it bad so I've been sucking it up. I have to pay my bills and get my own place. I'm working customer service for a security systems place. So not bad so far. We're in training still so we haven't hit the floor yet. We've also taken some calls and dealt with them. I like the people I'm training with so that's good. I just hope we all work together. I also need to find a second job so I can get ahead.
I miss Memphis. It's so hard without him. I can't wait for him to come out here. Once I have my own place and save some money, he'll get to come out here so I'm glad!
* Colah
Does anyone even use Vox anymore?
Today was the shittiest day I've had all year. I do not even understand how so many things can go wrong! Ugh, thanks for the added stress life. You're a real pal, ya know? Well it actually just became funny how so many things were disastrous but I mean nobody wants EVERYTHING to go wrong, you know? Cross your fingers that the power doesn't shut off while I'm writing this.
HOWEVER!!!!!!!!!! I heard something quite amazing today... RASCAL FLATTS IS COMING HERE OCTOBER! Tickets go on sale the 10th I believe and I'm going to be all over that. To go with the awesomeness that is RF enjoy my favorite song...
Sad to see Michelle leave Big Brother but happy Jordan stayed. She'd better win!
Naturally I'm going to address the most important worldly news as of this moment: Kevin winning P.O.V. on BB11. If either he or Natalie wins BB11 I may end up with a bald spot. It's the same when two of the "Nerd Herd" people made final two awhile back. How frustrating!
ha ha, alright now to the funniest and most pathetic thing I've heard this week.
A central Pennsylvania man said he robbed a bank in 2007 to go to jail and get away from his overbearing wife. At a sentencing hearing Monday, 39-year-old Anthony Miller said he robbed a bank in Ephrata because he wanted to leave his then-wife but she had threatened to commit suicide if he did.
I guess the couple did get a divorce but SERIOUSLY. Is this how bad needy women are getting? That her husband would rather rob a bank and do jail time than live with her? SERIOUSLY?!!
Anyways, this was just a quick update to tell all ya'll that I'm too damn lazy to finish any layouts I've started for an actual domain so... this is it for now! Oh.. and... If you haven't played Sims 3 you should. Now.
Unfortunately, summer's coming to an end and I start classes tomorrow. Le sigh. And I got a new job. Soooo, yeah. Fill in the blank. Haha.
Anyway, just wanted to say hello. Love ya! Come visit me here, plzzzz =) And I thought I'd fill your smile with cuteness with new stuff from my etsy ^___^ Take it easy, ya'll!
Soo... the time has come, my friends, for my domain. I am super excited to give you a link to my first domain ever and I moved to wordpress.... don't worry, I'm not deleting Vox or anything. I love the community here and I will check up on your posts, but I will blog at my new wordpress. Except for when I want to make private posts, I will do so here.
Please take a look and let me know you visited! Thanks <3333
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